This has been a week of remembering, tears, gratitude and peace. It was a year ago yesterday that Tom passed and I am feeling overwhelmed again by the kindness and love shown towards me by so many. Cindy took the day off work to be with me and we went to the cemetery where we cleaned the grave digging weeds and adding soil and seed to the top. I had bought a new arrangement to place there until we can get the headstone layed next month. We then went for brunch in Fort Langley and came home. When we opened the front door there were flowers and treats from various people. I cannot believe that people remembered what day it was for me. I was so touched. DeEtte messaged and performed a random act of kindness in honor of Tom, Heather phoned, Joanne and Dave messaged, and Max and Ross sent sweet messages. Kelly Groom called on behalf of the Sechelt branch. Cindy and I then packed the dog up and went to West Vancouver to visit Mom and Dad’s graves and place some plants there. The memories of this past year and the two previous years have been poignant and though having Tom leave me was the thing I dreaded most and the thing that has hurt on a level I have never experienced before, I think I have become stronger physically, mentally and spiritually because of it and because I have had too. I miss him on all those levels too but I have faith that the Lord will make all things right and wipe away all tears. I am so blessed by wonderful family members and friends - Jesus being one of them. I truly have been lifted and carried. I watched Tom’s memorial again when it popped up on my device and I cried.
I have been working on a talk to give this Sunday and Mary has asked me to do a part in her Relief Society lesson as well. I am missing the Temple being open but I am trying to get things done that need to be done. I have been looking for hula hoops for Moroni’s Quest, baking muffins and trying to give them away. I took store bought cookies to Ezra Peralto as he loved the Girl Guide cookies he had at my house. Jean and Cheyenne came over to spend one evening. Cheyenne has broken up with her boyfriend and she is confused. I hope that I am saying the right things.
The weather has been lovely and they yard looks beautiful but it keeps me busy with watering when it gets hot. Oh well, that is the cost we pay to have things looking good. I am waiting for Ryan’s quote for the front yard being turfed but I know he is really busy right now. My neighbors want to go in on it too so I don’t want them to become anxious about the delay. I have ordered a little bench for the back deck.
We mourn deeply when we love deeply. I am willing to go thru the mourning to have the privilege of loving Tom Walker and being loved by Tom Walker. I have made it thru one year. One year closer to Jesus and Tom Walker.
Cindy got me peonies like those Tom brought me from our yard in Edmonton when she was born. Melanie Leonard heard the story and brought me and Cindy more peonies.❤️❤️
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