It is my mother’s birthday today and if she were alive she would be 102 years old. I am sure she is aware of what is going on in our lives right now and praying for us as are many on both sides of the veil. We receive messages of love daily and can feel the sustaining influence of all those prayers.
At the moment we are still in the Abbotsford hospital and in palliative care. We made the decision to move to this ward yesterday. It has been a week of ups and downs. Tom’s bowel blockage was cleared with the human “draino” medication and now we are waiting for things to get moving normally again. The treatment has left his potassium low and he is also retaining fluids requiring diuretics. Retained fluids result in breathing problems so we feel we are part of a domino game. His mind is a little fuzzy due to his medications. He is tired and weak. We came to this ward because they could give him more attention and prepare us to go home better equipped. It has been a difficult time for both of us and Tom is handling so much so well. He is remarkable. This is the greatest challenge we have ever experienced and cuts us to an inner core of pain that is indescribable. The Lord certainly has his lessons and this one has brought us to our knees emotionally, physically and spiritually.
I come early every morning and stay fairly late until I feel he is settled. He feels better if I am here. He is always grateful to see me come thru the door. He has pain in his upper abdomen that they are uncertain about as to whether it is cancer or not. I am tired but somehow blessed as I drive back and forth to Abbotsford. I am very grateful for Tom’s decision to get the Tesla as it is so easy to drive and I only have to plug it in rather than worry about getting gas. Cindy is helping prepare me food and buy food I need, leaving it in our fridge. Mary Harvey kindly came yesterday and brought me a bag of food and walked with me down to the palliative care to see the room they had to offer us. It was so nice to have her with me. Joanne calls every day and has offered to come over. They sent us flowers to brighten our room. Our children are in constant contact with each other and us. I have prepared my talk for the special Stake Conference with Bishop Waddell this Sunday. It has been good for me to have that to do and Cindy and Paul taught me how to write it on my IPad so I am able to go over it daily. I just don’t want to cry while giving it.
This is such difficult time for us but we know we have angels all around.
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